Coming up from the Abyss

Handing problems over to God should be a "no brainer", right?  Let Him give you a sign as to what you should do, what you should say, etc.  Wrong!  I still felt like I needed my finger in the pie.  And it drove me crazy not knowing what the future held for me!  

I'm the kind that likes my "t's" crossed and "i's" dotted.  I always need a "plan".  But, I have discovered, life can go on without MY plans, and I can survive without a plan of my own.  

After falling into the abyss of depression for the last month,  I have finally "seen the light."  I prayed and asked God to forgive my distrust of His plan, and then I told Him He could take over now.  Needless to say, I'm a happier person.  And I've been given "signs" that the future will be exciting and actually fun for me.  My family will not starve and we will continue to have a roof over our heads and heat in our house and water to drink.  Everyone I thought was my friend is still my friend though most of them have not even realized how down I have been.  I guess I thought they would know by some magic means that I needed encouragement.  It wasn't until I reached out to them that they responded.  

Life is NOT about ME!  I'm seeing outside my life, finally.

Thank you, Lord, for refocussing my brain--onto YOU!